I am crazy. or I am truly a woman. ( I hope so or else are these body parts on loan?)

Why do I feel the need to say everything to everyone. and the crazy part is that i usually only say about a quarter of what I'm thinking. So if people thought I talked alot now, thank goodness they can't get in my head.

I should really just learn when to be quiet. I think it would serve my best interests.

The other part of me that drives me crazy is how much I nit-pic and disect things. I wouldn't have as much to say if I'd just let things go. but I can't. I can't keep my mind from wandering off and thinking bizzare thoughts.

Also, why won't I get it. I don't need to know what someone is thinking, and everyone doesn't need to know what I'm thinking. Just keep it to myself.

The sad thing is that I've already identified my craziness but there is little I can do to control it. It just seems to get the best of me sometimes. I also think I won't change; instead with age I will only come more subdued and hopefully wiser.

Customer Service Lines

I swear nothing gets me roweled up like customer service representatives. I have to call GAP because their fucking website wants to know who "my favorite teacher at the end of high school was." I hate security questions. They have you answer five different questions. How the hell am I suppose to remember them when I have to remember more answers to other stupid security questions for other stupid websites.

I especially don't want to call their customer service lines because 1.) it takes forever. Last time I was on hold for nearly 15 min. not to mention 5 min of choosing through menu options. 2.) They have foreigners. And nothing against them, but I don't understand a word they say. Then when u ask any question that deviates from what ever script they have in front of them they have to put you on hold for another 15 min to get an answer.

Just aggravating.

Lighter Note

So all I have to say is Kate Nash...bad ass...love her music. All her songs... just kick ass.

I'm so glad I was introduced to her music. It gave me a much needed uplift. I feel so empowered. Ahh! It's great.

See that is what I think art should do. It should inspire us, or make us feel better. I don't need something to be fancy or complicated or have a stamp of approval of an elitist or from the mainstream. I just need to feel inspired. and that is how I feel with her music......oh, I'm feeling a turnaround. I mean I'm not even letting the little shit guys have been pulling lately get to me....and you know who you are.

And considering I've had the worst sinus headache today I could not feel more energetic. Beautiful day guys, beautiful day.

Just two more months

It is times like these I have to stop and look forward. I have to pick my head up from the pile of shit surrounding it, and just refocus. Sometimes it helps, and it makes me feel optimistic. Other times it just depresses me to see how far I am from my goals.

It is crazy; I feel like the stock market I was up now I'm down. Just a month ago I was hyped and positive. It was spring the weather was beautiful; I felt like I shed my winter skin and was ready for a new year. Then within a few weeks I let small things bother me when I know if a few months it won't matter.

I'm just gonna go on a tanget:
-I hate pack rats, what the hell, either recycle or donate crap you'll never use again.

Ok, I'm back. I don't like feeling like this; especially when summer is about to start. Usually I'm excited. Summer means pool, vacation, relaxation. And I don't feel relaxed. I feel like this summer will be rushed. Yet I feel bored. It's not that I don't have things to do I'm just bored with what needs to be done. I don't want to do it anymore....... Just two more months...and then there's miami...or new york if i get a ticket to a fancy shamncy dinner... or Boston if someone is feeling generous.....oh I'm feeling a lil better.

Food for Thought

Why do some people try to shove their ideals and advice down ur throat when u've given no indication that u either wanted or needed their help.

Regardless of who you are I should be able to tell you to fuck off when you are purposely pushing my buttons.

When it comes to co-parenting I believe in compromise and diplomacy, I don't believe in being a cold hearted hard ass when the other isn't acting as mother/father of the year.

I hope that as I grow older my mind doesn't narrow, and I continue to strive to be compassionate and consider all perspectives.

Major Dislike List

ok, so haven't been on this thing for awhile and got a random feeling to write/type something. so i'm starting off with my major dislike list. b/c i'm in a bit of a crabby mood.

1. people who litter
so i had a prof in h.s. for a government class and he said that if he was ever made president she would get rid of suv's and anyone caught driving while talking on their cell phone would be stopped and shot. My first thought, "Wow, dude! seriously, need to simmer down". But i get it know. everytime i see someone litter it makes me want to, ...well not shoot them, but I want to shoot their tires out or something..... I don't know exactly what punishment should be but it should be something good so it makes them never want to litter again.

2. price of gas
i hate that the price of gas effects my social schedule. before i could drive to c.s. austin dallas no prob. now have to have a reason and budget a simple weekend trip. even simple things like meeting up to play tennis are beginning to become a problem. it sucks when u live in the area of town that doesn't have sufficient/safe tennis courts. doesn't exactly have a community that believes in personal fitness. And it doesn't help that i function only within the loop and loathe suburban land. everything is in the city my work, church, fav. restaurants, fav. shops, fav. parks, the galleria, museums, gardens, and it contains the most attractive parts of the city. ahh wished i had a hybrid.

3.

ok have to finish later i got distracted and ranting just doesn't seem important anymore.

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